Sunday, March 11, 2007

At what cost?
I am trying to let go of negativity in my life. It is not healthy. I cannot carry these burdens with me forever. However, I feel part of me, or my purpose, will be forgotten if I let go. If I let go of the hate I feel towards the town, well mostly school district, of where I grew up? If I let go of the anger, hurt, and hatred I feel for my first husband(i mean, come on, it has been almost 10 years). What will it cost me to let go of these things? Does this anger define who I am? Does it make me, me? Will I no longer have a purpose in life? What will this cost me? What? Some one please tell me...of course I have another question.. What will it cost me if I don't?
whimp

5 comments:

Deanne said...

As hard as it is to let go of these things it is still the right thing to do. It will cost you more in the end if you don't. These negative things do not define you. Your hard work, determination and love for your children and family are what define you.
Love you.
Deanne

supermom said...

hate, sucks, i struggle with it too. i struggle with it really bad. malvern has affected me in many ways, especially as an adult. i think when we are able to let go, we will feel free. it is tough though when you spend your formative years in such a horrible place, it does affect you as a person. it takes lots of work to get over it. lord knows, i am still working on it and no one seems to understand the pain that it has caused, even as an adult.

grandmacarnes said...

Wow, the negativity is a good thing to let go of, seeds of discontent and hatred grow and consume you. It is OK to feel anger, but put it in it's place and let go of it, you have educated yourself and are working on your Masters, That teacher, whatever her name is hasn't accomplished that. She is a small person to say such horrible thing to a child anyway. And I am appalled that the school allows that behavior. But, it is Malvern! Would have not flown had it been somebody _________'s child, fill in the blank, we all know many whose names could go there, and the teacher would have been dismissed immediately.

Brandy said...

You know, I ahve a favorite saying I heard a long time ago. I don't remember exactly what it said but the gist is that the best revenge against those who you consider enemies is to succeed. And, honeychild, you have. You not only survived but flourished without the sperm donor. You have proved over and over that the small minded, inbred and brain dead excuse for a teacher didn't know what she was talking about. Should you let go? Hell yes, do not let uch insigificant people have such influence in your life anymore. Your spirit defines who you are, and yours is shining bright!!

ribinscraps said...

Hey sweetie...i have an ex husband that I hate for about two years, until I had to buck it up and forgive him, forgive him for the pain he put me through. But i didn't forgive him for his sake but for mine. The hate was harder to work on, harder to bare. It is such a relief to my life and to my well being to let it go. I am more happy than I could have imagined. ITs hard to to do but you need to do it honey...